I don't agree that airing my dirty laundry on a public forum is a great way to go for a teacher, so here, in general terms, is an apology for those that know they need apologising to.
I have a few beliefs that fit in with a certain religion, but I hate organised religion. And so, when certain regrettable events occur, I find a place I feel safe, I turn off my phone, and I spill. Here's yesterday's confession.
I don't know why it happened. Were I in a healthier state of mind, it probably would not have occurred. Had I not had the week I had, or if I'd slept without being sedated any time in the past fortnight, or if I could erase last year, everything probably would have been OK. But I can't, and it wasn't.
It was stupid. I know that. I know there will be repercussions. I don't know what I can do to make things better. All I can do now is ask for the answer and hope that it will be something in my control.
I now know the repercussions as they fell on people that I care about, and I am disgusted. This is not something I am proud of. This is not something I take lightly. This is not something that I think is a joke. But like I said, I won't air my dirty laundry on a public forum, and so jokes were made about the incident. This was not meant to be disrespect, and I can assure one and all that I am sorry for any hurt caused.
When you've been in a destructive pattern for so long, every step forwards is two steps back. And over the past year I've taken so many steps forwards. I'm so sorry that this slide backwards has affected so many people. Anything I can do to make amends, just ask.
For now though, be assured that I will be trying my hardest to ensure that this never happens again. I'm so very sorry.
Refer this on when you are ready.
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