The Secular Guide to Confession

I don't agree that airing my dirty laundry on a public forum is a great way to go for a teacher, so here, in general terms, is an apology for those that know they need apologising to.

I have a few beliefs that fit in with a certain religion, but I hate organised religion. And so, when certain regrettable events occur, I find a place I feel safe, I turn off my phone, and I spill. Here's yesterday's confession.

I don't know why it happened. Were I in a healthier state of mind, it probably would not have occurred. Had I not had the week I had, or if I'd slept without being sedated any time in the past fortnight, or if I could erase last year, everything probably would have been OK. But I can't, and it wasn't.

It was stupid. I know that. I know there will be repercussions. I don't know what I can do to make things better. All I can do now is ask for the answer and hope that it will be something in my control.

I now know the repercussions as they fell on people that I care about, and I am disgusted. This is not something I am proud of. This is not something I take lightly. This is not something that I think is a joke. But like I said, I won't air my dirty laundry on a public forum, and so jokes were made about the incident. This was not meant to be disrespect, and I can assure one and all that I am sorry for any hurt caused.

When you've been in a destructive pattern for so long, every step forwards is two steps back. And over the past year I've taken so many steps forwards. I'm so sorry that this slide backwards has affected so many people. Anything I can do to make amends, just ask.

For now though, be assured that I will be trying my hardest to ensure that this never happens again. I'm so very sorry.

Refer this on when you are ready.

The Vengabus is not coming. No one is jumping. You look stupid.

Whoops, I appear to have been slightly lax in my blogging. Three months lax, really. That doesn't make much sense, but if you have a quarrel with me, you may bite me.

I have decided that this should not be an educational resource at the moment. There should, instead, be boobies.

Yes, the people demand boobies. As do I! So boobie away!

Well, what can I say? I'm currently insanely hormonal and have spent the last two days having as little contact with humans as is possible, as I do not really want to be arrested for murder. Gaol is not fun. I would have to work my way up in the ranks, collecting bitches, and I've already DONE that on the outside! It seems silly to have to do it again!

To add to the hormonalness, I have just today discovered that some new medication I have just started on causes breast growth. Many women would be thrilled by this. I am not. My breasts do not NEED to grow. They are a perfectly respectable 16DD. I would be happy if they were a 12C, for God's sake! It's hard enough to find bras already.

So, if any of you have scientific minds, kindly find a way for me to pass the breast growage onto someone who needs it more than myself. I can start up a charitable foundation, if needs be. Just ... for God's sake, don't let the suckers grow any more!!!!

I have recently, for the sake of my mental well-being, taken up playing the guitar again. Unfortunately, the only options I have here (at my parents' place) are my sister's half-sized nylon-string guitar (which is even ridiculously smaller than my three quarter-sized guitar, and nowhere near the clarity of the steel strings) or my Dad's "12 string" ... which currently has about 8 strings and sounds like a cat being tortured with the machine from the Princess Bride. Oh, and an electric guitar, but I do not like them. They don't have the nuances of acoustic.

Also, they are technological, and thus likely to explode when I touch them.

So, there are a few songs I have been practising every now and then, and at some point, when I can be bothered doing something other than horribly murdering innocent people, I intend to record a new one for my YouTube channel.

This is the problem though. I still don't think I'm very good. I've had compliments and blah blah blah, but I've also had people really telling that I'm not very good. And the problem is that I more readily believe the people that have negative things to say than those that have positive things to say. Especially when the people who are negative are my friends. It's really tough to get my self-esteem back once it's down, and my YouTube channel is one way I'm trying to do this. I mean, I've had nothing but positives so far, but ... I don't know. It's still tough.

So, for all two of you that are following this (Lee and Addy, your devotion amazes me. It will amaze me more if you can be bothered reading this. I shall label it with "Naked Paul Rudd" just to make certain that you do ... ) You get to have a vote on which new song I will upload. You can also say you don't really care.

Right now, I have three options. There is my current favourite song, "Eve, the Apple of my Eye" by Bell X1. It's a bit depressing, but absolutely gorgeous and I love it.

There is one of "our" songs that I have hunted out just for you, Lee - "Hazard". This will be without commentary, but if you would like, I can later add a version with commentary. Just for shites and giggles.

And finally, there is Deccer's favourite, "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. Mainly because it's easy to play, and a bit of a change from the normal, depressing stuff that I play. I don't think there's one happy song on my channel. Unless you count "Born to Run", and even that's still quite depressing.

So there you both are. You may vote. In the meantime, I shall put up a picture of Paul Rudd, naked. Hoorah!

Ciao, mi amigos! (I do not know if I mixed languages there, or even if I just blatantly made part of that up. And frankly, I don't care! Suck it up, I'm speaking foreign! :P )

Veer to the left cap'n, metaphors ahead!

When a building starts crumbling, there are a bunch of things that you can do. You can valiantly try to patch it up, you can let it crumble, or you can tear it all down, let the foundations settle and rebuild it.

So, this is what I'm going to do. I have been feeling increasingly melancholy in the past few days, so I'm going to tear everything down, give it a while to settle, and then rebuild it. I'm not meaning for this to be a downer or anything, but I need to focus on me for a bit. This is not to mean that I will be going AWOL or anything, bur I may be a bit sensitive. So bear with me.

Take it to the Limit

Well, here I am, finally joining the web 2.0 revolution (after getting a distinction in my e-learning class) with my own, fully customised blog.

So anyway, my followers at the moment are people who are used to my Facebook blogs. Unfortunately, unlike that particular blog, this is a mainly professional/personal learning network blog, therefore there will be a few changes.

First of all, there will still be pictures. However, they will be related to the blog content, and not strictly eye candy. This is the only sort of strumpet you'll see on here: -

Mata Hari is such a harlot!

Secondly, it's going to be much more focused on my study and on my learning - things such as my charity work experiences, classes, research and blah blah blah.

And thirdly, there will be this. An introduction of sorts.

So, my name is Renee, and I look rather like this: -


I am in my final year of studying an absolutely ridiculous sounding degree: - Bachelor of Education (Secondary) majoring in English and Drama, and a Bachelor of Arts majoring in English and Creative Arts and minoring in Literature and Theatre Studies. Basically, this leads me to being an English and Drama teacher.

I grew up in Boyanup down in the south west of WA and spent all my schooling years in public high schools in the country. Despite that, I've made my way through university and received a scholarship for my final years of study. However I did find that a number of my teachers were quite disappointing and were scraping the bottom of the barrel. Because of that I would love to teach in the country system, or in hard to staff schools.

The plan has me finishing my degree this year, and doing a year of teaching over here before heading off to do a year of teaching in the UK (hopefully Ireland), Canada and then Africa. My charity work has inspired me in this - the Oaktree Foundation is awesome, and I came on during their oneday campaign of last year. They're such inspiring people, and it's such an energising and rewarding experience.


Besides from all the education stuff, I am a singer, an actor, a musician and a baker. You can see samples of my music on the sidebar. I've studied jazz and classical as well as contemporary piano, and have been acting since I was in primary school. I adore my pass times and the people that I've met through them and through my different classes.

Well, that's about it for now. Hope you all enjoyed it.